Day 146: The Break-Up

There was a movie about 8 years ago called the break-up. It was a terrible film. The only thing worse than that film is what it was about. As you could probably imagine just from the title of this post, my boyfriend broke up with me today. I won't share many details; I will just say he wasn't ready to be in a relationship. Break-ups suck. There is no better way to say it. Even if it's for the best, it hurts. I have mixed responses to this breakup. I can be depressed and sob into a pillow cursing all men in the world and thinking that having a college relationship is impossible. That's the glass half empty view on life but then there is also the glass half full outlook which is to just let it go and move on thinking that there are other fish in the sea. I could even look at it as a blessing in disguise as God is trying to tell me I'm not ready for a relationship or have me just slow my emotional gears and direct them to mental gears for school. Don't get me wrong, school will always be priority but I have to be careful that this break-up doesn't affect it. Because I have to face the reality that break-ups suck but still want to have a positive outlook on the situation I have decided to follow the advice that Maria gives liesl in the sound of music in regards to broken relationships: "well, you cry a little, and you wait for the sun to come up; it always does." That's such great advice. So tonight I will cry a little and listen to heartbreak, sappy love songs and then wait for the sun. Hopefully, it'll be sooner than later because from a literal perspective it's been raining a lot here. For now though, I'm gonna cry. Joy, I'll be waiting for you because the Gaithers said that you (joy) come in the morning. And when the joy comes, the sun will come out, because as Maria said, it always does. Goodnight.